Curse examinations. Government ones especially.

here's my hand & my heart
its yours to take

A Good Day

I actually went to school. On my birthday! I know I know. I amaze myself at times too haha. I got many many many birthday wishes. Upon the stroke of midnight, I got endless calls and text messages kept flooding up my inbox up till now. Don't get me wrong or anything, I'm not complaining. Just really awed and touched by how many people remembered my birthday :):):)


Oh thank you thank you thank you.

Seventeen

I am SEVENTEEN!! :D:D:D

Flying out the window

I can officially say that I've officially screwed up my trials2. My hope for Accounts is a goner too considering how many quest I couldn't finish paper two. All halfway :(

Sigh.

Last paper tmr, Addmath2! Even bigger sigh. If Mrs Siti Dora's the one setting the paper, seriously goner already. I remember the mid term paper, goodness I took AGES to do one question. AGES. In the end, end up shooting half the paper man. Didn't have enough time. As you can guess, obviously I did really badly. :/ Hmm..I might wana skip the paper tmro considering its only trials2 what!

Oh well, I'm exhausted! And all that raining isn't helping me stay awake.

Nights!

Procrastinate

Procrastination is the art of keeping up with yesterday.
-Don Marquis

Panic Button

I haven't studied that much in the last few days. I feel guilty for not going through my books.

I've been drinking coffee in hopes of burning the midnight oil but it never seems to work. I'd be too drowned in sleepyness to even bother about the side effects of the coffee I consumed.

After much hunting and research on the net, I've finally managed to locate a few trial papers from the other states. Downloaded and converted the files this morning. Hopefully I'd get them printed out by tomorrow. My printer is really really retarded. Probably its because its old enough to be a grandpa to the new trendy ones heh.

I seriously have to start concentrating from now on. If not... then probably none of you would ever see me walking around anymore. Okay okay, I'm probably exaggerating the truth but you may never know what would happen to me if I bring home bad results.

Honestly, I think I should stop going online. Everyone keeps posting up the days we have left till SPM. I don't bother counting. Cause that'll just make me panic. But of course, I'll have to start counting the days sooner or later just to make me realize that it is going to come and hit me in the head.

And yea, I really really can't accept how Pizza Hut treat the Malaysian other than the bumiputra. Hey guys out there, do you guys know that Pizza Hut actually charged tax using race, I mean in every Pizza Hut. I mean in the bill, there is a column indicates 'Race'. If you are a Chinese, they will label it as C. And, taxes are charged for Chinese, Indian and other ethnics other than Malay. In other words, if you're wearing tudung, you can save up the taxes. Isn't it unfair?.. I know this by forwarded email. I do hope it wasn't real. If not, for sure I won't support Pizza Hut anymore. This is Hak Pengguna la wei, we learn it in Moral =P

S-t-r-e-s-s with the capital S

Yeap stress. My mom tells me I’m stressed. My dad tells me I'm stressed. Friends tell me I'm stressed. and yea, I also know I’m stressed too.

I don't know. I really really don't know. The same phrase has been coming to my mind over and over again. How to do this question? I don't know. Do i have confidence to do well in SPM coming up soon? I don't know. What are my results going to be like? Am i going to be contented with it? Am i putting in enough effort? Am i working too hard? Answer is, i don't know i don't know i don't know!!

I’m lacking self-assurance and having unnecessary stress. It’s like.. I don't know. Add Math last year felt kinda easy, theoretical to be my best subject but what now? I get half the marks cut off for careless mistakes or 'don't know how to do's. I hate myself for being so inconsistent. One day I can do well and the next day I can't.

Sometimes I don't know if it's all worth it. Many say, try your best and that's the most you can do. Or, no regrets no matter what your results are as long as you've put in your all. True, but it's undeniable that you will still definitely feel the disappointment when you get bad results even after working so hard. And how do you even know that you've tried your best? Maybe you have, but you never knew it, and you just keep pushing yourself till you cross the limit.

Sometimes I just think that there are so many other things in life than study study study study study. But.. I don't know. But this is important. And i don't want to screw it up. I don't want to disappoint myself and I also don't want to disappoint others and more importantly, myself.

Exams are three weeks away, and I feel like I’m not prepared at all. Seems like I’ve barely started revision. But I have. And I’ve been trying so hard. I really am. And still am. How is it going to turn out? Yet again, I don't know.

Sigh. I know I’m stressed. I promise I’ll try to de-stress. Just thinking of my upcoming birthday cheers me up already! =)

New smelling shops

I took a trip to pyramid in the midst of the raya holidays and ‘spm study break’. I was really really excited to go as I haven been to the only just opened Pyramid2. And my backside was itching to go out anyway.

Pei Hao went to fetch Jun Keat after he found out I was running late hehe. After picking me up, we proceed to fetch Carmen then after. It appears that Carmen came up with a story about going to a non-existent to study for the next few hours. Ah, you see how pitiful we form fives are. In the car ride there, I was fretting about the pains of having to study until our backsides practically take shape of the chair and she was complaining about her father expecting her to study every second of her waking moments. I also boasted about the one too many highlighters I own and countless other spm-ish nonsense.

Upon arriving at pyramid2, I had the sudden urge to pee. And stupid uncompleted pyramid2 hadn’t fully opened its entrances. We had to SEARCH for the damn entrance in the midst of my situation. After endless of blocked ends and work in progress signs, we found our way in the shopping complex. Thank god the loos were nearby!

Most of the shops in Pyramid2 were repeated and many were still in progress, unopened or unpacking. The air whiffed of newly opened shops. My sense of direction is already dreadful enough, and it got worst with rows of unfamiliar shops.

Everything was very very orange, orange logo, orange walls and even the loos! I like the loos, so new haha. We set off on our mission to shop for birthday presents. I had many friends whose birthday was very close to mine, a slight difference of a few days.

My red purse felt real light after we were done shopping. I met up with him. I was nervous what my friends would think of him as I was never known for having many boyfriends. But I brushed my jitteriness aside and plastered a smile on my face to greet him.

We met up later at Secret Recipe for teatime makan. And baby, sorry for only giving you only the brownie parts of my Classic Cheesecake heehee.

We shopped a bit while finding me a birthday gift. He’s such a cheater. I had to pick my own present. The joy of opening prettily wrapped presents from him hancur already.

After saying a quick hello to Martin who was in the sports shop below starbucks, we went for our movie. I now pronounce you, Chuck and Larry. The movie was so gay! It was pitch black in the cinema. Our first movie together. Well maybe not the first, but somewhat along those lines lah.

Cautiously, I lace my fingers through his.

Leaving the cinemas with silly smiles on our faces, we had yet to get me a present. So we walked and walked, passing thru shops that later on looked oddly familiar. And being my very finicky self, I kept saying 'no' or 'cannot' to whatever he suggested. Until he had that look on confusion on his face. He didn’t complain. After the seven thousandth encircling we made, I made up my mind.

In the end, his mum came to pick us up forty minutes later. In the meantime complaining about how my feet ached and how I also wanted to shower. Instead he enveloped me in his arms. I didn’t know what to do.

But at the ultimately, its been a really long time since I've been this happy as I have been today.

And and and, my birthday is coming up in a couple of days!! :D

Blogthing quizzes

ohhh today my friend asked me an interesting um. How to say.. Like..blogthings quizzes kind of thing. Something like that =D might be quite accurate hehehe

I shall post my answers in red.

1. You are on your way to your bf/gf's house in a big big desert. (dont ask me why your other half is living in the desert because i have no idea too) how many pairs of shoes do you bring along with you including the one you're wearing? can be 1 or 2 or 3 or 4 or 5 or yea.. 100 also can.

3

2. During your journey you see a shiny glass bottle on the ground. what do you do with it?
leave it

3. You are very very thirsty. Then you come to an oasis filled with a little dirty-looking water. what do you do?
drink from it

4. You move on. After a while, you come to an oasis filled with clean clean water. What do you do?
don't drink

5. You are on your way again (sigh he/she really does live very far eh) you see a tower. How tall is it? Short? Tall? Average?
average

6. Finally you reach your bf/gf's house. He/she is not at home. There is a servant at the entrance. Will you let the servant lead you in, or you walk in by yourself?
walk in by myself

7. You have in your hand a bouquet of flowers you want to give to your gf/bf. You walk around his/her house, looking for a vase. You find one, but there are flowers already in the vase. What do you do?
look for another vase

8. You wait and wait and he/she is still not home. You feel dejected so you want to make your way out of the desert anyhow you want. How are you going to get back?
walk out

hope i didn't leave out anything.. It’s really quite accurate.. For some people la.. hahaha

highlight for explanations

1. How many pairs of shoes signifies how many relationships you allow yourself to be in at one time.. lol i think i made a terrible choice.. haha i thought shoes in desert will spoil maaa but yea surprisingly a lot of people chose to bring 1 pair only not bad not bad
2. shiny glass bottle represents your first relationship. so if you pick it up and bring it with you, means you can't let go. if you leave it, means you are able to overcome it. if you pick it up, look at it then put it back on the ground again, means you still think about it once in a while and haven't fully got past it yet
3. whether you drink the dirty water or not shows whether you are willing to deal with problems when they arise during marriage.. if you drink means yea you will work towards solving things but if you don't drink means you are afraid of marriage.. if you drink a bit means.. um semi? haha
4. clean water represents temptation / likelihood of having an affair after marriage. if you drink, means you will give in to temptation and if you don't means yea you won't. hahaha it was funny when some people answered "clean water?? jump it and take bath ah!!" hahaha
5. if your tower is tall, means you are dominant in the relationship and will boss the other person around.. low means opposite of course.. and average is half half
6. if you walk in by yourself means you usually make the first move in relationships and if you let the servant guide you in would be opposite
7. hahah the flowers already present in the vase represent your love rival.. if you take the flowers in there out and put your own in means you are determined to get rid of your love rival =P if you put the flowers down and go somewhere else means you don't care about the love rival.. be there be there la. haha if you hold on to the flowers that means you are willing to wait for your other half and if you go and look for another vase means you will give up on the relationship if you realize that there's a third party
8. how you get out shows how fast you recover from a breakup. so if you chose to walk means you need long time to heal.. for those who chose to fly out!! hahaha that was soo funny means you can get over it easily.. most common answers were by aeroplane or walk out.. and some taxis.. my sister chose to get out on a camel -_-

so yea.. though i think we added in a lot of our own explanations.. but it's pretty funny =P

30

Days till SPM.

Its as if I've never imagined this day would come.

Its as if I've always imagined it was a long distant time away, that I'd never arrive at this point.

And now that I am, I'm slightly terrified. I've barely prepared, and my rational mind tells me I'm running out of time.

I'm gonna have to start working now.

Back to accounts.

Peanuts

Studying is quite a lonely thing.

You sit there for hours.
Reading text discovered by people who are already dead.
Wondering why did they ever existed.
If they didn't, you wont be sitting here for hours.
Which brought loneliness to the entire world when they have to study about their discoveries.

I'm bored of studying

I'm not that kind of hardworking or diligent or conscientious person who can focus and concentrate and study the whole freaking day.

I'm feeling pretty emo nowadays. My mood might have been disrupted and influenced by somebody.

I also have a very strong urge to just screw this whole thing and go to sleep without studying at all.

Exam exam exam. *pening*
Enough said. Bye bye.

Hah!

PMR ended on Friday.

I envy the freedom the form threes get, but then again I keep telling myself that once I'm done with SPM theres nothing to envy them about.

Cause I'd be done with school and they'll still be stuck with the agony of learning new subjects.

Why not

I'm feeling blah today. I should have gone to school and take the damn Moral paper instead of sleeping at home. Maybe then I'll feel more productive. I just couldn't seem to drag myself out of bed this morning..

Woke up at 12pm to shower, and I started my day with the best of intentions. But somewhere along the line, those intentions disappeared :(

I really did plan to study for the test next week. I did! Got a little lazy after that though. I think I'm getting lazier as the days go by. I just don't feel like studying anymore. I think I'm losing IQ points every second I slack :P

Okay okay I'm gonna go lunch now and study my beloved History after that. Hopefully everything I've studied wont just fly out my brain.

The oddness that is life.

I think I may go insane soon.

Trials2 are on. It feels weird. There's no pressure on me at the moment. I'm only thinking that I want it over and done with as fast as possible. Bleagh. This can only mean that I'm gonna so screw up my papers.

The other day I was practically forced in life-death situation to take Biology2 paper after being caught flunking paper3. I just didn't turn up for the paper. Heh. The night before, I had it all planned out I was going to school to study for Chemistry paper which is on the following day.

Needless to say, I spent two and a half hours doing utter nonsense. The first twenty minutes was spent flicking thru and guessing answers to questions which seemed familiar. From then, I slept, stared at my fellow classmates struggling to answer. I felt kinda bad for a moment. I spent the rest of Bio time highlighting the shoelaces of the guy sitting next to me, who also flunked the paper <3

I think i should start blogging in bahasa. I realize I can't make sentences in bm. It's always mixed with english. By blogging in bm, hopefully I'll be able to make better sentences by the time exam comes. I really really wanna get an A for bm. I will not settle for a D okay. On second thoughts, I don't think I'll be able to blog in bm for the next one months. I'll blog in bm every alternate week.

Your Birthdate: October 26

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