Friday

Its good to know that the weekend is coming. 
Break from the weekday work routine. 
:)

I Notice Right

As the numbers on my age increase, exposure reduces and privacy is given importance once again.

Unavoidable

heading back to campus tonight.
i shall not cry. i will not cry. i must not cry. 

Just thought you might want to know, or might have forgotten.

I avoid conflict. I have an avoidant personality in general.

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I hate watching horror. Can't understand why people would pay to scare themselves silly.

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I don't own a watch. And yet, I'm hardly ever late.

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Some may think I'm nosy, but, honestly, I'm just a curious person.

(Okay, maybe I am a little nosy. It depends on the topic of discussion)

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I blame everything on PMS; mood swings, 8am classes, and dropping soap dishes into toilet bowls.

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I like how "falafel" sounds on my tongue. Which by the way is a fancy way of calling a kebab. 

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I use to believe that love triumphs over everything.

I would still like to believe this... Nevertheless, I'm starting to lose faith in love altogether which is especially unsettling for me because I used to believe so strongly in it. 

I've been given so many reasons to come to that conclusion. I've become so hardened by cynicism and that my belief that 

relationships never equal happiness and that there's no such thing as love.

Alas, after taking time off and some soul searching, I've figured it out!

The key to happiness lies in just living in your own world.

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This May marks the end of three years since I started college. 

Three years of dorm life. 

Three years of communal toilets. 
Three years of bitter sweet salty memories.

Three years I can never get back.

Final year, please be kind to me. Thank you.

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I've been told the intake for my course this year is close to a thousand people. I'm starting to worry if there'll be a demand in my line of profession in time to come.

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I make terrible first impressions. Think about it ;)

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Working in during lunch hours is not such big of a deal. Nor does it mean you're more hardworking than the rest.

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It usually takes me awhile to warm up to someone. 

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It's my life's goal to never drink/smoke. But that contradicts with my other life's goal to try new things so I still can't decide if I am disappointed in myself. 

BUT I've reached a verdict: it's rather immature (and ignorant) to condemn something you've never tried. There are exceptions, of course, as life is short! So why not experience as much as you can? But to be honest, I still don't understand all the hype about getting drunk.

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You will not find a single song from Taylor Swift in my playlist. I have a couple of songs from Justin Bieber though.

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I am generally a shy person. It's true!

Usually, I don't talk much.

But every once in a while, I ramble.

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I can never keep my nails too long without scarring myself. In the face. So in addition to the vein in my cheeks I have red claw marks too.

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Lust at first sight yes, love no.

I'm too practical for love at first sight.

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I HATE TAKING OUT THE TRASH FULL OR CLEARING A CLOGGED SINK

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The weighing scale at home is broken for five years now. At sixteen years old I stood at 45kgs. Now, on the brink of turning 21, I still can't get past the 45kgs point no matter how much I eat. The pointer is faulty.

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I've never been able to not fall asleep. Ask anyone.

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Working Woes

As bored as I might have been at work, I'm starting to miss it and the people there. They are really nice, and makes work-life feels so much better, because unlike some people I've encountered, they sincerely want to help you out :)

I digress, after listening to horrific encounters my course mates raved and ranted over the three month period, my colleagues are saints. Cina speaking speaking saints no less. I've probably asked seven thousand no brainer questions all which they answer me patiently and with much clarity. That's the beauty of working with a small firm I guess :)

My first month was filled with nothing. Sounds ironic when I type it out innit. Once, I spent a whole day reviewing past files and that stretched on for days at a time. It was hell trying to stay awake with nothing exactly to do. Later weeks, the company secretary (from a different firm, by the way) decided we interns have had too much time in hand and started loading me  with mortgage loan agreements and twenty other foreign paperwork to be typed out. 


In March, work started to trickle in. The learning process was a frustrating one and even more when I make mistakes faster than i can say hippopotamus. While my seniors could accomplish a task within an impossible timespan, I completed the same task with three times fold the duration. Omb damn stress okay.

In the later months, I got to venture out to client companies which prior to that, got me all jumpy and excited. The glossy gleam in my eyes died instantly after I found out I was doing the exact same thing I do at my work desk only in a different office and a smoker junkie for a boss in place. 


Come the time I was leaving, the work load was crazy hectic. On my last day, I was on the phone bantering with a client until the very last of minutes. One company came by with 14 boxes of raw documents to process and sieve thru. I shudder to imagine the hours clocked in for that one engagement. All in all, I leave a lil bit wiser, slightly rounder and with a whole lot more appreciation for college. 

Teruskan usaha ex-teman seperjuangan =)

Lazy Days Shortlived

People always say, “sorry for not blogging” and on days I feel like reviving this dead weight space of mine, I normally would. Judging from the last three months or so, I’m fairly certain you can get through your day without reading my blog! nevertheless, I always try and remind myself to blog about something of more substance. But just like every other day, it just never happens. Because I am just that lazy and good at procrastinating.

Today I finally manage to sit down infront of a laptop and actually 'feel' like blogging. But guess what? I have nothing to blog about. I feel as if i'm at a bottleneck, where there are too many things happening at one go, nothing much can come out.


On the side note, I've had the pleasure of snoozing my alarm clock for hours at a time just because I can. I've also developed the habit of waking up for breakfast and catching another nap in between some chores and lunch. 

Alas, college resumes this coming Monday. All good things must come to an end, no matter how short lived it was to begin with.

Right now, i'm looking for some inspiration to start packing and like always, it just won't come.