Of sleep and more.

These days, gaining sufficient sleep has become a curiously difficult task. Despite the fact that everyone is bestowed with 24 glorious hours a day, Earth is still revolving on its axis as we know it, hence I am forced to believe it is because of my status as a (possibly) final year ACCA student.

Granted that (with some help) I have manage to uphold my routine of being punctual for a few weeks straight (most days than some), except that nasty tutorial on Thursday where the venues are smacked on two different ends of the planet. This being on time practice is mindlessly tiresome which makes me wonder how I've managed it so consistently before this! (haha)

The canons of being an accounting student have not changed over the years since enrollment in May 2008. Well maybe it's got a bit tougher and I've got stupider (no, I'm serious) ..

The proliferation of peers falling behind is just depressing and has continued unabated over the years. It has become a crisis of abundance; especially when you suddenly find yourself caught in that whirlwind of despair.

Cutting back on sleep time to cure this case of perpetual stupidity is definitely a challenge. It's as if I am summoned to move mountains and divide the seas, so to speak. If I were to superanalyze my daily tasks down to the minutes, I definitely can snooze lesser, take fewer showers, eat faster, never watch another episode of Big Bang Theory and stop restocking Tiny Tower.

Time. We always think we have so much of it.

Backdated; March 2012. 

Make It Good

March 1st, 2012 - 1.20 AM

Am in the midst of studying for a test, The Cab crooning on the current playlist and delightfully spooning honey star (and rockets) swimming from a bowl of full cream milk; while trying not to think of the large amounts of calories that was.

That said, have a good month ahead everyone!

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sometimes right, I feel as if there is no word that describes how I feel.
college makes me feel defeated, all the time.

thankful to be home. have a good weekend everyone!

Nights Like This

I want to sleep but my mind is running like a wildfire.

I flip open my books, armed with highlighters but my brain refuses to give leeway to any knowledge i attempt to shove into the gray matter.

The room is spotless from last night's cleaning spree.

I wish to be home. Family a glance away. The idiotbox blaring. The alley cat stretching on my sofa seat. Sweltering weather. But I'm miles away and I know what needs to be done.

How frustrating.

Fear Struck

June 2011 ACCA Qualification pass rates
F6, Taxation, 51%
F7, Financial Reporting, 38%
F8, Audit and Assurance, 40%
F9, Financial Management, 38%
P1, Governance, Risk and Ethics, 52%
P2, Corporate Reporting, 50%
P3, Business Analysis, 47%
P4, Advanced Financial Management, 30%
P5, Advanced Performance Management, 35%
P6, Advanced Taxation, 45%
P7, Advanced Audit and Assurance, 31%



Right now, nothing says demotivation better than a bunch of stats above.
This immense fear of failing is gripping my heart so tight I can barely breathe.
What the balls have I got myself into??? T_____T

No Sleep Tonight

Ive never been able to not fall asleep. I've also never thought I'd see the day I dedicate an entire post towards my all time past time activity :) haha! Now I'm about to throw another few minutes of my life out the window by talking about sleep. Or rather my inability to sleep.

Before three months ago came about, I never had problems when it comes to sleep.

Whenever, wherever. I've always been the master of falling asleep. Everyone knows that.

Sleep had always come easy for me. Rain or shine, exams or not. Once, I fell asleep on a visit to the zoo and another time, on my uncle's stairway while watching the idiotbox. Guess I'm never was cut out to be a TV person after all.

So, I was saying about sleep and it being the least of my problems. It saddens me deeply that, that no longer holds true.

My sleeping routine are so irregular that you can hardly call it a routine. I can't place my finger on a term to describe it in fact.

When life gets ugly, I sleep. But when I cant sleep, I get stressed. When I'm stressed and can't sleep I go on this crazy cleaning spree at wee hours of the morning. The next day, I'll be in zombiezilla mode and bite off everyone's heads.

This sucks!

Cross the As, Dot the Is.

It’s nerdtime AGAIN (geez, the times i have exams seems to happen a lot more than non-exam ones) at college. Albeit the lethargic feeling, I'm nostalgic all of a sudden. Weaving through my older blogposts from when I first started college makes me wish I was still in my first year, somewhat. Albeit being thrown into a hostile (cinafied) new environment back then, there was also lesser things to worry about. Like striving my butt off to not flunk exams.

It’s like high school when you think it’s the worst, then progressing on to tertiary education and it dawns upon you that life only gets harder. On the upside, I’m not kicking myself in the ass for not fully utilizing my experience in college.

Cos soon, it will be my turn to get all sappy about leaving college life and opening doors to the working world (which I am not looking forward to). Especially when you have parents AND friends who have already entered the workforce for more than two years telling you that your college life is the best, not to waste a single moment of it. Because you’ll never get that time back – being a student at this age, so to speak.

After that three month internship stint that ended in April, I don’t think I’m quite ready to venture out into the workforce just yet. Coming from someone who’s never had a proper job. Cooking Maggie for hungry hostel-mates doesn't exactly count. I have a few months shy of a year before I graduate and I’ll have to relearn how to write up a resume (did that for English during diploma), suck it up and grow up. Errr…yeah.

Advice

Kids,

If your parents tells you that Accounting is all about knowing your math and counting money like a boss, damn right they're wrong.

Excelling in modern maths does not guarantee you will ace in university, in fact, it bears no relevance when you reach your third year onwards.

If you insist on pursuing an education in this field, please read up on audit, tax, risk assessment, analyzing businesses, company ethics, corporate accounting, and finance management to get an idea of what you're getting yourself into. And by the way, don't be surprise when sometime during the course you encounter a couple of irrelevant pain in the ass subjects like statistics, HR and law.

Sincerely,
A final year finance student.

Just get on with it!

Lectures are making me want to rip my brains out, freeze time and sleep the next one year of my life away.

I should be studying more.
I should try harder to keep to my resolutions.
I should stop wasting time.
I should stop taking naps in the evening.
I should make an effort to stay up beyond 12am
I should stop being lazy.
I should stop pointing out that i'm lazy and actually DO SOMETHING about it.

There are many things I should be doing. And I will soon. REALLY REALLY SOON.

Instead, I want something to munch on now. I should really not eat that much even with the amount of exercise I do. Which is about; zilch?It'ss not thatI'mm hungry but rather eating to stay awake.

So I eat.

Get fat or be stupid. Take a pick.

Where has June gone?

Oh wait, i know. Countless nights was spent with my books, hunting down my eraser, keeping up with classes, and recalling when's the last meal i ate. So there you go, June in a nutshell.

Ode to ACCA

I'm falling into a hole 
A hole so black, so deep and so endless 
I know where I hope the hole will take me; towards light 
But I can't be sure 
It doesn't matter, because we all have to go through darkness to find the light

Three

Deadlines to register for repeat and resit papers are out even before result dates are revealed. Ahh. I see where this is going...

June 2010 session ACCA Qualification pass rates:

Paper F7, Financial Reporting, 28%
Paper F8, Audit and Assurance, 36%
Paper F9, Financial Management, 43%

These figures are so uninspiring. Grrrrah! 

Love/Hate minus Love. Where does that leave you

Back in March...

Before the storm has passed.

Another storm seems to be coming on.

Reason?

My first semester results will be out this Tuesday. That's in less than 48 hours.

I had mild ‘ohshyteohshyteohshye’ moment going on when I read someone’s status update reminded me about horrid tax results.

So much for having a relaxing week. 

How Accrual

So my brain has to officially start functioning tomorrow.

LECTURES ARE STARTING. Finally?

Seeing the timetable was quite a shock at first cos it was just sooo confusing. The blocks in between of lectures and tutorials were so….sparse. And then it dawned upon me that I’m only taking three papers this semester in contrast to the usual six. But after taking my time and going through it properly, this semester will see if my determination will pull through or waive. Friday’s the worst so be warned of my moods. Eventhough the subjects seem a tad bit more intimidating than previous semesters, I'm really excited to start learning. I’ve got two all important finance subjects which only means by the end of the term I'll be yakking away in accounting lingua. -__-

I'm starting my second semester already. And soon, I’d be outta here. It is almost surreal. In a good or bad way, I haven’t quite figured it out yet.

By end of this week my bag pack will be loaded with overpriced study texts and I just hope with all my might the weight of it doesn’t bring me down to my knees, if you read between the lines, you’d catch my drift.



Tomorrow it all starts.

(brave smile)

This; is what I call demotivation

June 2010 session ACCA Qualification pass rates:

Paper F1, Accountant in Business, 64%
Paper F2, Management Accounting, 54%
Paper F3, Financial Accounting, 60%
Paper F4, Corporate and Business Law, 51% 
Paper F5, Performance Management, 57% 
Paper F6, Taxation, 46% 
Paper F7, Financial Reporting, 28% 
Paper F8, Audit and Assurance, 36% 
Paper F9, Financial Management, 43% 
Paper P1, Professional Accountant, 53% 
Paper P2, Corporate Reporting, 47% 
Paper P3, Business Analysis, 51% 
Paper P4, Advanced Financial Management, 34% 
Paper P5, Advanced Performance Management, 44% 
Paper P6, Advanced Taxation, 35% 
Paper P7, Advanced Audit and Assurance, 32%


The ones in red are the papers I'm signed up for this coming semester. After gaping open mouthly at all these percentages I feel the sudden absurd need to start studying. Pah.

Six Points

I WANT TO GO HOWME. Needs out from college-time now.

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Squishing down FR this afternoon cost me 15 bucks.

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Have I mentioned that my roommate and I share the same message tone? Tak cukup kah dengan sama bilik, sama jenis specs, sama shampoo, sama style rambut. Itu telefon punya bunyi pun mau sama. Creepy. Since then, I've been using  the phone's default tone and everytime her phone beeps, I'll glance at mine.

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Need a new alarm tone/wake up method. It's like I don't remember to wake up to my own alarm tone anymore. Suggestions?

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Too many datelines to meet. hence, bogged down to college.


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Embracing spontaneity (and stupidity)

Bananaire

Classmate: i've something important to ask
Shya: uh huh
Classmate: how to become a banana?
Shya: -_____-" err have you tried eating lots and lots of bananas?...

Friday Frenzy

refraining myself from blogging so the world won't actually realise what a nerd and a slouch i can be, simultaneously!


to prove my statement above; as of now, i am ten minutes late for my next class which is actually upstairs and 210 superlong minutes. ten minutes short won't kill anyone, and everyone else is probably, well, late, i hope :D